I think it might be time to grow up. This is going to take a lot of trying, I need to become more intelligent, more eloquent, better spoken, listen to more music, read more books, watch more interesting films, all while still being able to carry on in school without any more accidental minor nervous breakdowns after and during Maths and English classes.
Maybe this will be my ~New Years Resolution~ and that might mean by mid-February I will have a better grasp on my life.
I don't know if this means I can't stay up until three am watching Twin Peaks and aspiring to be like my heroines [Audrey Horne, Blair Waldorf etc.] nut I'm sure it means I can't spend hours of my life doing nothing at all apart from dreaming, I must do improving things, and have improving thoughts and have great discussions with insightful, intelligent people that know lots of things. I also, mustn't be scared at the prospect of sadness, although it is terrifying, I must be prepared to face it, along with the idea of failure. 7
I don't really know what this idea is, I think mainly, it's to stop me from messing around and get stuff done, I think I might just need Tina Fey as my life coach and then I'd be fine.
But this year will be one of change, not that I'm saying 2011 hasn't changed my drastically, it has. However, I need to change myself now as a consequence of what has happened, to better my mind, and hopefully, to help me achieve what I want, which is being able to express my ideas without having to pause for thought (this will take a lot of learning new words to cope with).
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